you know those days when things just feel slightly wrong... i got my marks back from the maths resit i did and i only gained 4 marks... not good... its depressing because i know that i should have done better... and i got back the results from my p2 mock... only 41% - an E. So i have to go to extra classes... but then again so do the rest of my class apart from 2 people... just had a long discussion with my mum and we kinda discussed all of it and we talked about how i don't seem to be putting as much effort into my work this year as i did last... and its true... i never meant to, but I have slacked... I spend too much time trying to avoid work rather than get it over with... I also need to get organised, my folders are a mess... i can't learn from them as i can't find which piece of work is relevant. I know i need to do more - i just have to stop myself from slacking - not easy. But i know i worked so hard last year and its given me such good offers from different uni's... especially Bristol who lowered their standard grade for my offer. And I really want to go there... I need ABB, which, if i work hard, should be very obtainable. But its not all that good at the moment.
I also need to work on getting a bit fitter and loosing a bit of the xmas weight. Its not that i'm greatly unhappy with my body... there's just a little bit of extra padding that i want to go, and also build up some stamina again. I used to do so much sport in secondary school, swimming, kickboxing, netball, p.e... and now all i keep up is kickboxin and going to the gym... it just needs to be a bit more.
Things just seem complicated at the moment... i don't seem to be doing enough for the time that i spend on anything... i haven't been out with friends for a while, and i really want to get out... but now know that i need to concentrate solely on work for a while... ARGH... like my 2 best friends came round today and i hadn't seen them for so long... its just such a shame... i really miss them! and at college there just seems to be less people around than last yr - every1s timetables are so different that there's always a catch when trying to meet up....
AND i really need to get more sleep.... goodnight after that rant